It is finals week yet again and this round of exams marks the conclusion of my third year of dental school. I am nervous about becoming a D4. That is just one step closer to being out there on my own. It is kind of strange; you go to school because you want to be a dentist then the closer you get to your goal the more terrifying it becomes.
I definitely am ready to be done with school. I am tired of the monotony of it, the lack of control, the lack of income, and of course studying. I am really tired of studying. I have started studying for my next round of boards. They are next year and I am beginning to think I started a little late. There is just so much material to go thru. I am not as worried about the WREB which is the hands on portion. I am sure I will do fine as long as I can find board patients. I only have one so far and I need two more.
I think I am struggling with the idea that I am the doctor, not the assistant anymore. It is really easy to sit in that assistant chair an think ‘hey, I could totally do that’. The hard part is sitting in the doctor chair when things are not going exactly as you expected. I have a classmate that uses the phrase ‘shut up and put your doctor pants on’ whenever he hears someone complaining about how difficult this is. He is right, but sometimes those pants feel like they belong to someone else.
